Cant Sleep

As I sit here tonight unable to sleep my mind is racing. I can remember hearing Lee Speak at Clear Springs and I remember when Hungry Horse Montana was just a place. I remember him talking about certain people and and showing there pictures on slideshows and they were just faces and names and now there my friends. I would have never dreamed I would grow up to be a missionary and Sometimes I still am in awe at why God picked us but im grateful that He did. I remember God speaking to me just like sitting on your couch talking to your friend across from you. I can remember him saying I want you to go and I can remember pleading with him "No Please No I cant We are at a church We absolutely love and We've been in our house over 2 years now and were so happy"!! I remember this same conversation several times. Finally one night I answered God by saying " "Why?!?! You know how long i've prayed for Jeremy to be involved and have a meaningful relationship with you and finally my prayers have been answered and you wanna mess that up?!! Jeremy would never go anyway and im not telling him because he's gonna think im crazy"!  It wasn't 2 weeks later We pulled into our driveway one night and Jeremy parked the car and turned to me and said "I've got to tell you something" and he starts spilling his guts about God telling him for us to go to Hungry Horse, Montana. I just stared at him for the longest and finally He said I know its crazy but its true and I said "I believe you because i've been feeling it too" And not long after that We said "ok God We'll Go" We had no idea where or how we'd live but We started talking with Lee and Joy on the phone and It wasnt long before some plans were being made. In the months to follow I was sad even when I was happy I would still deep down have this sad feeling and after a while i realized im homesick. Homesick for somewhere i've never been. Of course now that we've been here almost 6 months im homesick for home but I know im here for a reason and Gods not done with us in Montana yet. God has really worked in our lives and my only regret is that I ever told him no. 
 Being in the full time Ministry is not always a bed of roses. We have alot of hard times and shed alot of tears. But when that Kid runs up and hugs you unexpectedly or new kids start coming to Beyond Borders and you see them start getting it Its all worth it. Every Tear and Every frustration is worth while. God is really working here in the Canyon Please Continue to Pray for us and Lee and Joy and the People here in Hungry Horse, Montana.

Christmas Day These are the gifts we got from my Mom Bibles :) We were super excited!!!!

We did it We are strong :)

We survived our first Christmas away from our families. With church and getting invited to Lee and Joys for dinner it was actually a busy day so not much time to stop and think about being apart from family. But its still there deep inside your heart and we missed them alot but  we did it, and I feel alittle bit stronger now because of our decision. We had a wonderful Christmas serving our Lord and then enjoyed fellowship with great friends. We are so blessed :)

Why We Didn't Go Home for Christmas

Some may wonder why we decided not to come home for Christmas the answer is simple. If Jesus is the reason for the season and God called us to Montana then why wouldnt we stay here and serve him?!  We felt it was the right decision for our first year here. Another reason is because Christmas is so rushed running from one families house to another and not being home in 5 months it would have just been alot of stress. We have decided to go home for a visit in February for my birthday. That way we can spend time with both our families and hopefully it will be a stress free visit. If theres one thing i've learned about myself since being in Montana Its that i'm a peacemaker. I go out of my way to try to make everyone happy and I try to fix things that are beyond my control. This is probably a big reason why I constantly have headaches due to stress. The good thing is I have realized this and now can try to fix this. Ha like i need another thing to fix.  Anyways Going home for Christmas Just didnt seem like what we needed to do this year. This however does not mean that We dont miss  our families  and that this isnt hard at times, But We know we made the right decision for us this year.

Never underestimate what God can do!

I said I cant leave everything i know and love and move somewhere ive never been
God said Yes you can

I said I cant sing in front of people I get too nervous
God said trust me you'll do fine

I said No way I cant speak in front of people I'll just cry
God said Just do your best

I said I'll never make it through telling my family goodbye
God said it will be hard but I'll be right by your side

I said Jeremy can do the music He doesnt need me to help
God said I have plans for you both wait and see

I said God why did you call me im so unworthy and I have no idea what im doing
God said yes but I know what im doing Trust me

Never underestimate what God can do. Just trust him He has a plan for your life listen to his call.

Womens Retreat :)

So Thankful for Jody Kelly  who opened her house up to all us ladies for Womens Retreat. We had a awesome dinner followed by white elephant gifts, bible study, girl talk, and games till about 2AM! We had the best time and I am happy tp get to be apart of it. Unfortunately I left my camera at home : ( So no pictures only the wonderful memories remain. 

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