Just when I think I could never adore you more
I find new ways each day that make my heart skip a beat.
I never ever ever thought I would say this, but I am glad I had to wait for you because I know that I love you so much better so much deeper because of the 7 and a 1/2 years I begged God for you. I am not the woman I was way back when your daddy and I got married and I know I am a very different and a far better mother than I would have been back then.
All mothers love their children whether they were newlywed babies, big surprise babies, or perfectly planned and prompt babies. However since I am one of the mothers who had to wait, who cried out for what felt like an eternity I have a special heart for those mamas who it didnt come easy for.
Im not saying this is why all those Mamas had to wait or are waiting, but im speaking solely for myself when I say im thankful that we waited. Im speaking from a place of sincere honestly when I say I now realize I wasnt ready all those years. I wouldnt have appreciated every single moment the way I do now.
I always believed that Gods plans are far better than our own, but now I have proof. I get to look into deep brown eyes that remind me daily how deep the Fathers love for us is. Not only that He would answer our prayers and allow us to be blessed with the gift of parenthood, but that He would not leave you a orphan. That from the moment you were born He placed wonderful people in your life who loved you unconditionally before we could.
You make us smile daily when you fold your hands and want us to pray what seems like one million times a day, but its a constant reminder that while we are suppose to be guiding and teaching you, you are also teaching us. You have a genuine happiness about you that leaves me in awe. You already have a heart for Christ and as your mother I am so so incredibly proud of you for that above everything else.
And although I pray for a larger family and more children, I know that if thats not Gods will for our family then you are absolutely enough. You are enough to feel me with joy and pride for a lifetime.
You complete us in a way we have never been completed.
You are a constant example of Romans 8:28
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.
Although I want you to always know and feel how much your daddy and I love you, I want you to know that God loves you so much more than we ever could. I want you to know that He never leaves us and He never left you.
You were worth every second I waited and I know now that I was waiting because God knew I could love you more later. He knew that I could be a better mother. He knew that I still had a ways to go. But while I cried and begged Him for you, He smiled because He knew this day was coming. He knew that I would one day realize and say the words I never ever dreamed of saying
Im glad I had to wait for you.
