A bad attitude!

    Do you ever have a bad attitude?? I do ALOT, but last night was extra bad!!! I was just in a horrible mood, and I was madest because I was mad that I was mad! haha Hope you get what I meant there. Jeremy and I made a promise that no matter how stressed we got about the move we were gonna make these last (6) weeks here the best and not waste a moment worry about things we cant change or control. So I was so mad because I was breaking that promise. Then we get in bed and Jeremy was asking me what was wrong. So of course I began unloading EVERYTHING and finally I said im just so frustrated. You know what He said "The Lord has been way too good to us for us to feel like this"  He put himself in it, but it was mostly me so He really meant " The Lord has been way too good to you for you to feel like this" But thankfully I married a gentleman and He didnt say it so bluntly. He was right and that did snap me out of my bad attitude for the moment. He then reminded me that we only have 3 wednesdays left. So again I promised (myself) that  I was gonna make the most of the rest of our time. After all no time to be sad, frustrated, or anything else negative not when God has placed so much positive around me. :)

   Today is a new day and it might not be a better day then yesterday, but I will have a better attitude!!

A house guest for the weekend and a update on Molly.

      We committed to keep our friends dog ( Conrad) for the weekend. So on friday our house guest arrived and He was not so sure about us, but He warmed up quickly. You know how Molly was always Jeremys favorite and followed him around everywhere and she liked me, but I was clearly not her favorite well.......................................I am finally someones favorite :)

   

  By the way if your wondering about Molly She is doing great. She loves her new home and family and is trying to learn to be more gentle with her new families cat :/. She is adjusting well and we are so thankful to the Downings for giving her a good home.

Silly Saturday #15

          Have we really been enjoying Silly Saturdays for 15 weeks?!  Wow Time  flies!!!! Speaking of time flying the weeks are dwindling down, and it won't be long till were Tn bound. When we first felt God calling us back to TN  I began saving boxes. Our family sends us stuff alot and in December it seemed like UPS was stopping daily. So we have one whole wall in our extra bedroom filled with boxes. So the packing has begun!!! All our winter clothes are packed except for a few hoodies, and jackets.So thankful I left those out since it snowed tuesday night!! Last night I packed all our sliverware, utensils, and dishes. I know what your thinking "What are you gonna eat on, and with?  As most everyone already knows Canyon Baptist Church has not always been a church. Most people have heard it was a bar, but alot leave out that it also use to be a resturant. So upstairs in the church kitchen is a room with all kinds of pots and pans, dishes, and sliverware. So I went up got what we needed for the apartment, and when I had got everything it had not even put a dent in all thats up there!! Another reason I went ahead and did this is because this summer a family is coming to help Canyon Baptist. They will be staying in the apartment so they would have needed all those things anyway. So instead of packing my stuff last minute and leaving the cabniets bare for someone else to worry about. I am ahead and now thats one less worry for me, or anyone else.
            Packing is making things very real. I am overwhelmed with excitement and then boom filled with sadness.  It is not easy so don't be fooled by our smiles or upbeat attitudes. We decided that We want these to be the best weeks ever and we wont let ourselves get overwhelmed with sadness or fear. We asked God to help us, and guess what we are filled with peace!!!! God is good!!!

Packed and ready to go!!

Romans 8:28

            We all have to make decisions that are hard. Jeremy and I had to make a hard decision,but after many sleepless nights and questioning ourselves we both agreed it was for the best. Life can be mean, heartbreaking, and unfair, but when we hand our decisions over to God they can work out for the better and He will give us peace. That is what happened to us this week. As most of you know we planned to take Molly with us to Tn, but as complications with that begin to arise we questioned that decision. So as we wrestled with the question to take her with us or find her a new home we began to pray. Laugh if you want, but God wants us to bring whats on hearts to Him in prayer.  We decided finding her a good loving family was the best option.  This was not an escape route or just something we did without much thought. This has broken our hearts! But in the end we love her enough to do whats best for her. 36 hours in a car is not best. Especially if she has to live in a tiny apartment with no room to run or play. Once the decision was made we began to ask around. I prayed that God would send the right family, possibly one with kids because Molly without a doubt loves kids.

       I asked God to give her a loving family and to give us peace. Within a week our friends Jeremy and Cameron said they would love to give her a loving home. Boy did God answer my prayers!! Molly now has not one child to love her, not two,not three, She has five!! She will be in heaven. Plus she will be right down the road until we leave and we can go see her. Also another great part is Alayahs Mom is friends with Jeremy and Cameron so Alayah will still get to see her friend! Without a doubt God worked all this out and although our hearts are broken God has given us peace. Molly was our everything for the last year and a half and instead of being sad that she will no longer be with us,  We are thankful for the time we had with her.
God answered my prayers and Molly now has another loving family.


And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Mollys new family :) 

Opportunities

   I'll admit that there have been times I have had to ask myself am I moving home for selfish reasons? In the beginning while we were unsure if this was Gods will for our lives we prayed and struggled to see Gods plan for us. I can remember sobbing one night and saying God, I dont wanna be selfish. Help me to think clearly and not selfishly. We prayed and prayed and just felt God moving us toward Tn. I prayed for peace and understanding. God has continually given me both. He has opened the door for opportunity after opportunity. In fact we have so many ministry opportunities awaiting for us in Tn that we are currently praying for direction and which path to choose. I have already commited to a babysitting job that will start at the end of July.  I can see Gods hand in this move. I know He has a purpose and a plan for us. I am thankful for all the opportunities  He is pouring out for us. Through each one I realize more and more that this is His will for our lives and not a selfish decision. I feel so blessed that He has work for us back home where both our families are. God is good!!

Silly Saturday #14

      Wow Wow Wow!!!! Thats all I could say when I stepped onto the scale Friday morning. 130 was my goal when I started my weight loss and when I hit 130 a few weeks ago I was on cloud nine. It felt as though a huge weight had lifted off of me. I got down to 129 and relaxed. I still walked daily and ate healthy, but there was no worry. They say that stress is a huge reason for not seeing weight loss. I must say that is correct because without trying I lost 2 pounds!! I am now 127 and HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!! God is so good and has kept me motivated just like I prayed He would and there is no doubt in my mind that is why I have been successful this time. 

This is the dress I changed into to leave my wedding 5 years ago. It has not fit in along time, but I could not bear to get rid of it. I danced all around the house when I slipped it on to find it is a little loose. :) God is so good!!!!!

Cooks!!

Be a friend!!!

Always live life as if someone is watching and looking up to you. Because even though you think no one is.....they just might be.

Be caring, be a role model, but most of all be a friend!!

Silly Saturday #13

Easing into the background

             8 more weeks!!!! It is becoming more and more real that in only 8 short weeks we will load all our things in a u-haul and drive away. We will leave  friends we cherish and a life we love. All for Christ. No sacrifice is too big considering your doing it for a man who gave the ultimate sacrifice. I am sad. I am overwhelmed. I am anxious. I am worried. But I trust God and His plan for my life. I have peace because I know He holds my future and He will work it out for my good.

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Romans 8:28

             Lately I have been working on letting go and easing into the background. On wednesdays my jobs were to teach the 3 and under class and get everything together for the puppet shows. A few months ago my friend Diane took over the 3 and under class for me so that I could put  100% of my focus on the puppet ministry. Through a conversation a few weeks later a friend of mine Christi said she would like to take over the puppets when I leave. So I begin to help her and show her what I do and next thing I know I am slowly easing into the background. Please don't take this post wrong I am not whining or saying poor me everyones  taking my jobs. I am praising God for laborers!!


 Then he said to his disciples, “The harvest is plentiful, but the laborers are few;  therefore pray earnestly to the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into his harvest.” Matthew 9:37-38


           I am so thankful for both of those ladies and their willingness to serve. Because of them I get to go in each wednesday and enjoy the kids. I still help cook the meal and clean afterwards so dont think im somewhere with my feet propped up, but I am watching as others take over jobs I started. As a missionary this is what you work for. In hopes of one day slowing  easing into the background and watching things go on and function whether your there or not. Because reality is that in 8 more weeks I wont be there, but something I started will and it will go on and grow long after im gone. Not because i'm awesome, but because God is. Not because I was a good teacher, but because God helped me each week. Not because I had a great idea one day and came up with the puppet ministry, but because God gave me a vision one day for the puppet ministry. Not because I woke up one morning and wanted to come to Hungry Horse, Montana, but because God put a desire in my heart for Hungry Horse, Montana. And now God has put a desire in my heart for TN. Not because my family is there although thats great, but because God has a purpose for us there. God is allowing me to slowly ease into the background not to make me feel unneeded, but to give me peace and allow me to see that life will go on in Hungry Horse, Montana and although it will hurt and hearts will ache we will all be just fine because we wont be alone, and there is no greater peace than that. 


Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go Joshua 1:9

Just a random photo!

So I  have had to get alot of new clothes since most of my old ones are huge!! I must say its amazing how big a difference 33 pounds makes. So here is one of my new outfits. The jeans are a size 6!!!!!                    The last time I could wear that size I was a freshman in high school!!! 

Happy Birthday Jeremy Lee Malone!!!

   So tomorrow will be a busy day we are having a bbq and meeting for the workers at Beyond Borders for Christ. So I decided I better write this post today since more than likely I wont have time tomorrow.  So yes I realize i'm a day early, but He never reads my blog anyway so He wont know the difference!

Happy Birthday to my wonderful Husband!!!

 You have shown just how strong you are this year. You set a goal and did not stop until you reached it. Today you are 90 pounds lighter because of your hard work and dedication and I am so proud of you!!

Hooray for a productive Monday!

   I feel like I got alot accomplished today!! Yesterday evening I wrote our last newsletter :(  This morning I printed them all then  I multitasked by folding them while sitting on the back porch getting rid of the sun tan line I got at the lake on sunday. Ok so the sun did all the work besides the folding. Then I came inside and packed up most of our winter clothes. I left out a few outfits just in case. Then I organized our extra bedroom which is filled with empty boxes and now some packed boxes. I also packed all our blankets and sheets that we wont be using again for awhile. Then I got all the newsletters put into envelopes and sealed. We went to dollar plus to buy sun screen and aloe since we are a little burnt from the lake on sunday. Then we came home and took Molly for a walk. Now Jeremy is cooking dinner and afterwards I need to put stamps on the newsletters and start writing addresses on them. I am looking at the clock wondering where my day off went, but it was a good day. Happy Monday everyone!!!

 

Silly Saturday Oops Silly Sunday #12

           Ok who realized I forgot silly saturday yesterday??!! I completely forgot!!!! So here is a picture of us this beautiful sunday morning before heading off to church. 





 By the way All my clothes in this picture are from the clothes closet here at Canyon Baptist so come on by every 2nd and 4th tuesday of the month from 8:30am-11:30am for free clothes!!!!!