Life as We knew it.

    Beautiful 3 bedroom 2 bath house in town but country setting. Two reliable cars. I stayed home and took care of the house and our animals (which were like our kids) while Jeremy worked. I never missed my favorite shows. We went to the movies and out with friends alot. On saturdays Jeremy always had to work so I would always hang with my Mom (who is my best friend)  we would go to Crackel Barrel and eat and then head to my mamaws. You never knew who would be there. We'd visit for hours we were always surrounded by family and We laughed till we cried.  Saturday night I'd meet Jeremy at our church to practice with the praise team for the next days services. We always practiced hard but had fun too and before it was over with we normally had some new inside jokes and lots of memories.
    Everythings different now. Why you might ask?? Because one day God said go and although we were afraid We said ok. There were days We wanted to change our minds. There were times I cried my eyes out. And as I gave each animal to new homes as I handed each one of what I considered my babies to complete strangers I thought my heart would stop beating. As I packed up the last few boxes of stuff from my house A house I thought id spend forever in. A house I had already picked a room out to be a nursery in when the time came and having to finally realize and deal with the fact that it will more than likely never be my Childs home. Sitting in church our last  Sunday I thought Id never make it thru but somehow I did. Telling my parents and family bye I knew id never make it without having a breakdown but I did. As I took one last walk through a completely empty house I thought id collapse against a wall and sob but I didnt
Why you might ask? Because someone was holding my hand As I clutched Jeremys hand till my knuckles turned white someone was holding both of us. See God never leaves us. He's always there. When I handed each stranger my pet he was patting me on the back. When I was packing up my house he was talking to me to keep my mind off things. When I said Goodbye and hugged each family member He was in each hug too. And as I was saddened because my child wouldnt have the nursery I had in mind for it He reminded me its not about the childs room or even the house its the life you give that child in the house.
     Yes life as We knew it is over but our hope is that because we touched someones life here in Hungry Horse, Montana someone else can say Life as they knew it is over.

Vacation??? I think not!!!

Must have sleep!!!! 6 am got up and got ready to go to Food bank 7am-12pm worked at food bank. We did however slip in some fun We had lunch with Bill and Becky and Steve and Becky. Came home around 1:30ish and practiced playing my bass. I can now play Amazing Grace on top string but hey its progress. 3:30pm starting cooking for bible study tonight. Bible study from 6pm-8pm Now time for bed. Did I mention I could not sleep last night so im going on maybe 4-5 hours. Who was it who said Jeremy and I were on vacation??!!!
   Despite all this did I mention We love it here and wouldnt have it any other way. Trust me following the Lord and his will for your life is the best thing you'll ever do. God is so good!!! :)

Tuesday Night Bible Study and Wednesdays Beyond Borders

On Tuesday nights at Canyon  Baptist We have bible study. We eat at 6 then have a message from 7-8. I know what some of you are thinking ugh another day at church good grief but I dont feel that way at all. Wednesday Nights We go to Canyon Elementary School (which is no longer being used as a school) to have our service for the kids. We are  3 different churches of 3 different denominations who come together for one purpose THE CHILDREN. We call it Beyond Borders. We have a worship band that play some songs and then the kids head to there classes after class We eat. Since wednesdays are for the kids tuesdays are for the adults. I help Joy with the food for both services. Jeremy and I feel very at home at Canyon Baptist. I know God truly wants us here, and We will not leave until God tells us too. If we were to leave now I can not even begin to tell you how sad I would be or how much I would miss Canyon Baptist and the people who make up this church. Crazy as it may seem I love them already. We have some great friends here. Dont get me wrong we have Great friends at home that We miss very much and We miss Oak Grove Baptist too. But We feel at home here too a place we had never ever been and yet We packed up and moved here Why?? Because God said to and thats good enough for me. Not long ago I would have done anything to have a child of my own but it wasnt Gods plan because God had much bigger plans for us. Which were coming to Montana I didnt understand then but now I do see in a way I have kids lots of them They come in by the bus loads on Wednesday nights at Canyon Elementary. Always  rememeber Gods ways always end up being better than what we had planned :)

Montana So far/ Deliverer, Provider, and friend

Well Tomorrow We will have been here a month. I am truly amazing myself although I have cried some and said "I just wanna go home" I am unbelieveably happy. I love it here and Jeremy feels the same way. There is not a doubt in my mind its because so many people are praying for us back home and here. The first time i stepped in Canyon Baptist Church I felt God. The holy spirit was there that very first sunday and has been ever since. If you told me or any of my family that I would ever stand on stage and sing they would say are you sure we are talking about the same Stephanie. If you knew me back in high school you wouldnt let me on a church stage but thats what is so beautiful about God He can take us at our lowest and turn us into something wonderful for his glory and thats what he did for me. Praise the Lord for his Love, Mercy, and Forgivness. Because without it  where would we be?? I mean truly think about it. He loves the unlovable. He will be our healer our provider and our friend but so many times we wont let him Why?? Why are we turning Jesus away. Why is he a last resort?? I was saved when I was 10 but I strayed. I wasnt the girl God wanted me to be and as I got older I was far from the woman He wanted me to be. I was a bad person. And when I finally turned my life back over to him around age 19 I carried the shame for a long time. But God didnt want that See when He forgives He whips the slate clean. I dont have to go around with a ball and chain attached to me. Dont you want your slate to be whipped clean today???  Because all you gotta do is ask and you shall receive God made it that easy. He loves you and He makes to make you that something beautiful that you were always meant to be. Will you let him today??  Sorry for ranting but God laid this on my heart.

God is so Good

I been really worried lately about how we are going to make it money wise in Montana. I have been so stressed out and even wondering if were doing the right thing. I know the devil has me doubting our decision to go. I cant imagine what all he is planning to throw in our path to try to stop us and its scary. I am a worrier anyway and I have had a few anxiety attacks and now as I worry about getting us moved out and leaving everything I know and love sometimes the fear seems unbearable. I told Jeremy the other night if I need to get a job in Montana I will. He has taken care of me here and worked and id take care of us there. I have prayed and prayed that God will work out the money part. But I havent given the worry to him and as I sit here today a verse just all of a sudden popped into my mind and I know its Gods answer to me.
But my God shall supply all your need according to his riches in glory by Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19

So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.   Isaiah 41:10

I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. GOD IS GOOD ALL THE TIME!!